The following is information that came in for a client of mine. She generously allowed me to post it so that the message is there for any that it serves. Take whatever is necessary for you from the words and let the rest move on to all others it meant to touch..........C
For months now we have been traveling in that place of visiting our deepest fears. Taking them on head first, experiencing them and allowing ourselves to see further into the fears, no longer allowing them to swallow us whole. What is your greatest fear in this situation? It is not the test themselves nor the language classes. It is of not being enough and of failing. Not failing the classes but, failing at living life according to the beliefs of those around you, beginning with your family. Go deeper inside to the child self that has held the fear of being different and not measuring up to those she loved. Let her (you) recognize the old words and feelings that stated you could not do, that you were not enough. Forgive all of those who uttered those words or sent that message. Allow yourself to see the perfect being you are and love who you see.
Again, the experience and lesson in this is the repetition of not performing according to someone else’s idea of good enough. Once you stepped into the continuance of your old pattern the energy has freely flowed there. Even with all that you have heard to overcome this, the old energy of fear and failure has been stronger. It is time to really see yourself in a light of perfection and grasping all of your lessons easily. Looking beyond the idea of just the language class being a form of learning to speak in a new and different way, what does it represent to you internally? That is where to look for this. It represents the idea of speaking then not only being heard but, also understood. And the same with hearing and understanding those who speak to you. Think of the child self and how many people spoke at her expecting a certain outcome. Then her interpretation of what was said to her and how she felt as if she failed when she tried to do what was asked because the message became garbled in her mind or at least that is how she felt.
This is the hardest time for many of people. Let yourself really see yourself whole and perfect. Imagery does help you at this time. Imaging a positive outcome and then feeling it to the very best of your ability. It isn’t to continue to look at the why of this idea of failure but, to look past it and see yourself completely successful in all of your efforts. Do not let the fear blind you to the actual outcome. Do not let the fear blind you to your true abilities.